Hello, my introduction

I'm 55 and had an incestuous relationship with my aunt when I moved in with her to go to university. It involved her discovering my crossdressing desires. Although the relationship was 100% consensual, and I loved her dearly, it has left me as an older adult with some emotional problems. Not so much that it was incestuous, but the way our relationship developed and eventually became as it involved my crossdressing, my submissiveness and her dominance. Not that it involved BDSM but her control and the way she would exhibit that control. Her death was devastating to me, and the emotions exist some 25 years since her death.

At 55 I'm confused about my sexuality, addicted to pornography and in a sexless marriage, more than that it has a complete lack of intimacy.

Ben

Ben,

I’m sorry you’re having trouble.

What are you hoping to find here, given that out focus is on consanguineous relationships?

Also, would you please explain your username?